Venting

There are days that I just want to rant and rave about the kind of miserable day that I'm having. But this journal is supposed to be about being positive and all that.

Sometimes it's absolutely challenging to stay positive when things go wrong one after the other. It's a constant effort, sometimes very tiring to look at the bright side. But by doing so, also helps you stay sane.

These past few days have been harrowing for me. I've lost my patience more than once and my smile has turned upside down once in a while.

I miss my old life. When I was a stay at home wife, I never realized how happy I was then. Now, I look back and miss it very much. But I am happy I got to experience that at least for a few years, when I'm still young and healthy.

My day

My day certainly started so well. Hubby woke me up with the usual kiss and hug.

No traffic again.

I had a fantastic breakfast.

My bosses were out this morning and I had a few hours of peace.

Yeah, despite the fiasco earlier, today is a good day :-)

A bed of roses

Life's not a bed of roses. Sometimes things happen that are beyond our control and things don't usually go according to plan. 

Today has been one of those days. I just want to be left alone. For once, I am craving for family members to stop asking favors and ordering me around. I just want to be left alone.

I said no today. Which is pretty unusual. I guess that can be perceived as a good thing, according to my husband. "Slowly wean them from asking favors from you all the time", he says.

So, I don't know if this is a happy post. I certainly feel relieved that I won't be doing too much stuff for family this weekend.

Nice day

I slept really well last night, got my 8 hour quota, yipee!

My husband woke me up with a kiss and a hug and we cuddled a bit bit before going to work. Nice. I love early morning hugs.

There was no traffic today. I got to work in less than 30 minutes, which is very rare with today's traffic.

My cousin and her family got their notice for immigrant visas today. Their dream is finally starting to come true. I hope they do well in Canada, for the sake of the children.

When I woke up yesterday, I suddenly uttered "I'm happy" I guess this journal is helping me make the best of my life. And I feel that I am truly blessed.

Wow!

Wow! I comfortably fit into my favorite denim skirt. I haven't worn it in months because it became too tight.

My husband woke me up with a kiss and a hug, and let me sleep a few minutes more.

Weekend bliss

My weekend was such a happy time. My husband and I took it easy, spent the whole weekend lounging, watching DVDs and just doing a bit of laundry and cleaning. I'm so happy I managed to squeeze in three loads of laundry.

Bliss bliss bliss.

It's been a long time since we've done practically nothing on weekends. Life's been very hectic with work, errands, fixing this and that, going to and from, here and there. 

It's such a relief to just be....... still :-)

Be grateful

I think one of the best ways to start one's day is to be mindful of that things and people that you are grateful for.

I am grateful for my husband who continues to love me, warts and all.

I am grateful for my family who loves me and miss me when I'm not around.

I am grateful that we have a home that provides shelter and refuge.

I am grateful that we have clothes that protect us from the elements.

I am grateful that I have I job that I recently started to love.

I am grateful for my friends who have stayed with me and has remained loyal through the years.

I am grateful for the many material blessings that come our way.

I am grateful that I woke up this morning with my husband sleeping beside me.

I am grateful that we can afford to buy food that we love.

I am grateful for all my travels with my husband and with my family.

I am grateful for my looks, I don't usually scare small children.

I am grateful for my health.

I am grateful for the big comfortable bed that we sleep in.

I am grateful for the many people that have blessed my life by making me happy, sad and strong.

I am grateful for the many challenges that I have overcome.

I am grateful for my mom who loves me and has nurtured me though the years.

I am grateful for my nephew and my niece whom I love so much and provide constant joy when I am around them.

I am grateful for the housekeeper who cooks our meal every night.

I am grateful for the generous aunt who helps us all the time.

I am grateful for my parents-in-law who raised my husband.

I am grateful for my sister in law ho gave birth to my nephew and niece.

I am grateful for my friends at the office, my day wouldn't be so much fun without them.

I am grateful for our cars who never breaks down during very important days.

I am grateful for my husband's boss who is so kind to him.

I am grateful for my husband's co-workers who are very supportive of him.

I am grateful for my husband's job that supports us.

I am grateful for having the means to purchase a condo nearby.

I am grateful for my grandparent who loved me so much when they were alive.

I am grateful for my grandmother who taught me so many things and have imparted so many recipes and kitchen tips that I still use to this day.

I am grateful for the prayers that family members do for us.

I am grateful for my father who raised us and sent us to school. May he rest in peace.

I am grateful for the many chances I get to better my life.

I am grateful for the internet connection that allows me to blog about the many things that I am grateful for.

Challenging Day

This day isn't one of the best days. Things have gone wrong one after the other. In spite of the day's many challenges, I really really am tested to keep a positive outlook, if only to keep my sanity.

So far though, things have calmed down and I am so ever grateful. Finally some peace and quiet.

Things are returning back to normal and progressing as they should.

Things should get better throughout the day. I am specially looking forward to a nice evening with my husband.

Life is Good

I've been dreaming about getting a condo near our place of work. Looks like it may come true sooner than we anticipated. I just got an offer from somebody willing to help us with the deposits :-)

My husband woke me up with a kiss.

No traffic today. I got to work in just 30 minutes.

Happiness in my own words

Happiness is an ever evolving definition. It could be a thing, a place or a person. It greatly varies from one person to the next. What is it, really? I like to simplify it in tiny little events that make my day bearable.

Amidst life's many trials, it is often a challenge to look at all things bright and beautiful but we must be vigilant in looking at the positive side of things no matter how impossible the situation may be or no matter how negatively people perceive us. After all, our most loyal companion throughout our lifetime is only ourselves. Friends and family come and go and lead their own busy lives and may not always have the time for us, but we always have ourselves to rely on. We are our own best friend.

Many many things make me happy. People who love me make me the happiest. But the people that make us the happiest may also be the cause of our greatest sorrow and disappointment. It takes a herculean effort to look beyond their imperfections and shortcomings during trying times but we must, in order to stay sane. I've been through a lot of disappointments in my life, almost all reduced me to tears, praying and begging on my knees for the pain to cease. Hardening my heart at closing my mind only turned me into a bitter and miserable person.

I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be happy.

I want to lead a happy, blessed and abundant life.

The power of positive thinking

Here's my dream :-)

1. Win big in a LOTTO draw!

2. Be rich and retired by 40.

3. Own five condominiums in the Greenbelt area.

4. Travel the world with my husband.

5. Live in a 3-bedroom condo in the Greenbelt area.

6. My husband would also like a red Jeep Commander.

7. To give birth to intelligent, healthy, cute, normal twin boys.

8. Own a commercial building along Aguirre Avenue in BF Homes.

9. Meet Daniel Radcliffe in person. I'm a fan :-)

10. Me and my husband to be healthy and happily married to each each other until we're 80.

If I dream it, it will come. (please please please)

Turn lemons into lemonades...drink up!

Our bathroom sink fell from its bracket. We replaced that cruddy old sink with a new one, Yey!

My one and only black heeled shoes have faded, husband's buying me a new one, Yey again!

Can't wait to shop.

I wore this black dress that I love but got some bad news one time wearing it. But I decided not to tie bad news with a particular dress. Life's too short to hold grudges. Anyway, it's not the dress' fault that I was wearing it when I got the news. After all, I always get nice compliments when I'm wearing it :-)

Lunch bliss

What a satisfying lunch. I've been craving for a mocha birthday cake for two days and what do you know? We have some at the office, what great luck!

I took a walk and it was sunny, I was able to wear my funky red shades. I felt like a movie star :-) 

My boss went out for lunch, ahhh stress-free for a few hours.

I saw my favorite cousin yesterday. 

A new day!

I feel pretty today. 

I'm in a good mood. My boss is in a good mood and hasn't snapped at me yet :-)

A co-worker said I looked better without glasses.

Got to work on time, despite the horrendous traffic.