Thanks

I am grateful for this day. I managed to get a really good sleep last night in my comfy bed, my husband sleeping soundly beside me.

I am grateful for the hot water that I used to bathe today.

I am grateful to my best friend who makes me laugh and makes me feel good.

I am grateful that we can afford to buy basic necessities and then some.

I feel blessed to be happily married.

I am grateful that my marriage did not fall apart after a huge trial last year. I vow to continue to strengthen out marriage, be more patient and understanding towards my spouse.

Waiting....

I got some potentially good or potentially bad news from my doctor. I have to wait a few weeks to get the results.

Several possible outcomes, my uterus lining is very thick, more than double the size according to my ultrasound. It could be hormonal, polyps, cancer or pregnancy.

I am hoping for pregnancy. I've been waiting for the stork to give me a package for 6 years. Now that there's a possibility that I might be I often find myself talking to my baby.

I hope someone is praying with me for a good outcome.

I can't find out until the next two weeks. So long.....

Turning a frown upside down

My day started with such promise. I woke up feeling pretty and happy.

Things have one wrong early on even before I left for work but I did not mind it, not a bit.

As I was walking to work, I've had some nice people wishing me a "Good morning" I was elated because I felt pretty and nice. 

My day turned for the worse. All the lines at the office died. Fortunately after about half an hour they were online again. I was so thankful and said a quick prayer of gratitude.

My day became even worse as the morning progressed. My boss busted my chops and I felt so let down, I felt upset and I wanted to cry. I don't like being yelled at in public. I wished I was somewhere else. Back home in my little house, safely cocooned in my room. I wish I was still a housewife with no one to yell and humiliate me. I wish I wish I wish.

Life often throws a curve ball. I have to learn to hit it far far away where it will never hurt anyone.

It's a struggle to stay positive after everything that has happened today, the day's not even over yet.

I'm listening to some happy music to help turn my frown upside down.