Happiness in a Nutshell

A little sympathy

2008-12-19T08:45:00.000-08:00

I just burned a huge batch of my special brownies that iw ill serve for my husband's party tomorrow. I am so pissed and angry. My husband is no help. No sympathy, no nothing.

I feel exhausted, tired. It has been a very trying month. I wish I could just sit, rest and just be...still.

Finding a silver lining after so many weeks of exhaustion is extremely hard.

I want to be a happy person now....

Please let me find the stregnth and the energy to help me through my day.

I am so tired.

Happiness Posts

2008-11-10T01:19:00.000-08:00

This site is dedicated to just happy thoughts. If I concentrated on the crappy things in my life, I would just attract more crappy things. Why bother?

It's a struggle to be positive all the time. I have to re-train myself to look for the silver lining. It hasn't always been like that but I dfo want to attract the positive things and by thinking positive thoughts, I hope I can have good things...(actually I already have good things) let's just say I want better and brighter things to come into my life.

Things that make me happy

2008-11-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

My nephew makes me happy. I am happy when he helps me in the kichen everytime we have a family gathering.

I am happy when I talk to him and he tells me stories about school, his friends or his sister. He makes my heart sing.

I am happy when people enjoy my food beacause I put so much effort in making them.

I am happy when I am able to help people. My husband doesn't always share my enthusiasm but I am happy when I am able to help someone.

I am happy when people recognize the amount of work that I put into a well planned party or event or trip.

I am happy when I get email from strangers and tell me how great they think my blog is. I never though anyone would actually read them aside from my family.

I am happy when my husband and I cuddle up.

I am happy when my husband massages me and helps me go to sleep because it's very hard for me to sleep.

I am so happy when I wake up without a migraine or without pain. I wish that I could find a cure for my migraines.

I am happy when people congratulate me for a job well done. Very few people appreciate the work that I am doing and when someone acknowledges that I feel ecstatic.

My successful operation

2008-11-10T00:44:00.000-08:00

My operation was a success. I got out of it alive. I even managed to get up and walk the follwing day.

I am most grateful for my husband and my family who welcomed me with smiles and lively talk when I got out of the recovery room. I felt loved that night.

I am so happy that I feel cared for during my recovery time. I can defenitely go back to work but I don't want to yet. I would like to savor a few more days of being spoiled. My husband encourages me to rest and recuperate.

I am most grateful to God for making me strong and healthy and for making my operation a success. I know things may go wrong at the operating table but it did not.

I am happy that I have this time to rest, catch up and be home, which I love most in the world.

I am thankful that my best friend visited me last Saturday to talk and to see how I'm doing. I love her and she's been my friend for 25 years, can you belive it?

Birthday

2008-10-22T18:59:00.000-07:00

I am thankful that my birthday went well and that I had some bonding time with family and my husband.

I feel loved by my husband.

I am thankful that we can afford to go out and have dinner in a nice restaurant once in while, we couldn't afford it before.

Nervous

2008-10-13T20:43:00.000-07:00

I just found out that my medical insurance won't be covering the surgery that I need. Fortunately my husband's insurance can cover 80% of the cost. At least we won't have to spend for everything.

I feel so blessed that my husband and I enjoy these benefits. If one fails, we have another one to fall back on.

I had a hard time sleeping last night. I guess I'm till nervous about my upcoming surgery. I do hope that everything goes well. I am looking forward to a two-week vacation though after the surgery. It will be without pay but it will be stress free, hopefully.

I am so looking forward to a few days at home.

I saw my nephew and niece last night. I love them very much and I kissed them and hugged them. I felt happy.

Thanks

2008-09-23T22:02:00.000-07:00

I am grateful for this day. I managed to get a really good sleep last night in my comfy bed, my husband sleeping soundly beside me.

I am grateful for the hot water that I used to bathe today.

I am grateful to my best friend who makes me laugh and makes me feel good.

I am grateful that we can afford to buy basic necessities and then some.

I feel blessed to be happily married.

I am grateful that my marriage did not fall apart after a huge trial last year. I vow to continue to strengthen out marriage, be more patient and understanding towards my spouse.

Waiting....

2008-09-23T00:10:00.001-07:00

I got some potentially good or potentially bad news from my doctor. I have to wait a few weeks to get the results.

Several possible outcomes, my uterus lining is very thick, more than double the size according to my ultrasound. It could be hormonal, polyps, cancer or pregnancy.

I am hoping for pregnancy. I've been waiting for the stork to give me a package for 6 years. Now that there's a possibility that I might be I often find myself talking to my baby.

I hope someone is praying with me for a good outcome.

I can't find out until the next two weeks. So long.....

Turning a frown upside down

2008-09-01T23:07:00.000-07:00

My day started with such promise. I woke up feeling pretty and happy.

Things have one wrong early on even before I left for work but I did not mind it, not a bit.

As I was walking to work, I've had some nice people wishing me a "Good morning" I was elated because I felt pretty and nice.

My day turned for the worse. All the lines at the office died. Fortunately after about half an hour they were online again. I was so thankful and said a quick prayer of gratitude.

My day became even worse as the morning progressed. My boss busted my chops and I felt so let down, I felt upset and I wanted to cry. I don't like being yelled at in public. I wished I was somewhere else. Back home in my little house, safely cocooned in my room. I wish I was still a housewife with no one to yell and humiliate me. I wish I wish I wish.

Life often throws a curve ball. I have to learn to hit it far far away where it will never hurt anyone.

It's a struggle to stay positive after everything that has happened today, the day's not even over yet.

I'm listening to some happy music to help turn my frown upside down.

The law of the garbage truck.

2008-07-15T01:37:00.000-07:00

This is an excerpt from an email that I got today which rings so true in my life and everyone around me.

"The law of the garbage truck. Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it, and if you let them, they will dump it on you. Don't take it personally. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on, you'll be happy you did."

How many times do you let other people dump their garbage on you and in turn you spread it around? I sometimes catch myself doing that and I hate it.

The other day, I received some harsh words from my boss and I felt so lonely and sad. Instead of feeling angry against others, I tried really hard to contain my anger and frustration and did my best to shrug off the incident. It was so hard. I just want to lash out at everyone who didn't do their job, I was angry. But I managed to contain my anger. It was one of the hardest things to do! I still feel hurt up to now. I wish I wasn't too sensitive about this things. In spite of all the harsh words and criticisms that I got, I did my best not to spread their garbage around.

It's a difficult thing to do to just sit there, smile and take it, but I'm learning.

I love

2008-07-01T20:26:00.001-07:00

I love my husband very much.

I love my mom.

I love my nephew J and my niece A.

I love my brother.

I love my best friend who stood by me, no matter what.

I love my friends.

I love my cousin B. He makes me happy.

I love living here in this country.

I love the beach.

I love my life!

Our Trip

2008-07-01T19:59:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful that my husband and I arrived safely back home from our recent trip abroad.

Our trip was nice, we got to see a lot of places and we got to spend a lot of time together.

We ate really delicious food.

I've met some new people.

Somebody gave me a rose when I was away.

We finally slept in our own beds. Yey! I love sleeping in our bed. It's big and spacious and relly really comfortable. I'm happy we were able to afford it.

I saw my nieces and nephew last night. I'm glad that they are are growing up healthy.

Venting

2008-06-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

There are days that I just want to rant and rave about the kind of miserable day that I'm having. But this journal is supposed to be about being positive and all that.

Sometimes it's absolutely challenging to stay positive when things go wrong one after the other. It's a constant effort, sometimes very tiring to look at the bright side. But by doing so, also helps you stay sane.

These past few days have been harrowing for me. I've lost my patience more than once and my smile has turned upside down once in a while.

I miss my old life. When I was a stay at home wife, I never realized how happy I was then. Now, I look back and miss it very much. But I am happy I got to experience that at least for a few years, when I'm still young and healthy.

My day

2008-06-18T22:38:00.000-07:00

My day certainly started so well. Hubby woke me up with the usual kiss and hug.

No traffic again.

I had a fantastic breakfast.

My bosses were out this morning and I had a few hours of peace.

Yeah, despite the fiasco earlier, today is a good day :-)

A bed of roses

2008-06-18T22:30:00.000-07:00

Life's not a bed of roses. Sometimes things happen that are beyond our control and things don't usually go according to plan.

Today has been one of those days. I just want to be left alone. For once, I am craving for family members to stop asking favors and ordering me around. I just want to be left alone.

I said no today. Which is pretty unusual. I guess that can be perceived as a good thing, according to my husband. "Slowly wean them from asking favors from you all the time", he says.

So, I don't know if this is a happy post. I certainly feel relieved that I won't be doing too much stuff for family this weekend.

Nice day

2008-06-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

I slept really well last night, got my 8 hour quota, yipee!

My husband woke me up with a kiss and a hug and we cuddled a bit bit before going to work. Nice. I love early morning hugs.

There was no traffic today. I got to work in less than 30 minutes, which is very rare with today's traffic.

My cousin and her family got their notice for immigrant visas today. Their dream is finally starting to come true. I hope they do well in Canada, for the sake of the children.

When I woke up yesterday, I suddenly uttered "I'm happy" I guess this journal is helping me make the best of my life. And I feel that I am truly blessed.

Wow!

2008-06-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

Wow! I comfortably fit into my favorite denim skirt. I haven't worn it in months because it became too tight.

My husband woke me up with a kiss and a hug, and let me sleep a few minutes more.

Weekend bliss

2008-06-16T02:06:00.000-07:00

My weekend was such a happy time. My husband and I took it easy, spent the whole weekend lounging, watching DVDs and just doing a bit of laundry and cleaning. I'm so happy I managed to squeeze in three loads of laundry.

Bliss bliss bliss.

It's been a long time since we've done practically nothing on weekends. Life's been very hectic with work, errands, fixing this and that, going to and from, here and there.

It's such a relief to just be....... still :-)

Be grateful

2008-06-11T17:08:00.000-07:00

I think one of the best ways to start one's day is to be mindful of that things and people that you are grateful for.

I am grateful for my husband who continues to love me, warts and all.

I am grateful for my family who loves me and miss me when I'm not around.

I am grateful that we have a home that provides shelter and refuge.

I am grateful that we have clothes that protect us from the elements.

I am grateful that I have I job that I recently started to love.

I am grateful for my friends who have stayed with me and has remained loyal through the years.

I am grateful for the many material blessings that come our way.

I am grateful that I woke up this morning with my husband sleeping beside me.

I am grateful that we can afford to buy food that we love.

I am grateful for all my travels with my husband and with my family.

I am grateful for my looks, I don't usually scare small children.

I am grateful for my health.

I am grateful for the big comfortable bed that we sleep in.

I am grateful for the many people that have blessed my life by making me happy, sad and strong.

I am grateful for the many challenges that I have overcome.

I am grateful for my mom who loves me and has nurtured me though the years.

I am grateful for my nephew and my niece whom I love so much and provide constant joy when I am around them.

I am grateful for the housekeeper who cooks our meal every night.

I am grateful for the generous aunt who helps us all the time.

I am grateful for my parents-in-law who raised my husband.

I am grateful for my sister in law ho gave birth to my nephew and niece.

I am grateful for my friends at the office, my day wouldn't be so much fun without them.

I am grateful for our cars who never breaks down during very important days.

I am grateful for my husband's boss who is so kind to him.

I am grateful for my husband's co-workers who are very supportive of him.

I am grateful for my husband's job that supports us.

I am grateful for having the means to purchase a condo nearby.

I am grateful for my grandparent who loved me so much when they were alive.

I am grateful for my grandmother who taught me so many things and have imparted so many recipes and kitchen tips that I still use to this day.

I am grateful for the prayers that family members do for us.

I am grateful for my father who raised us and sent us to school. May he rest in peace.

I am grateful for the many chances I get to better my life.

I am grateful for the internet connection that allows me to blog about the many things that I am grateful for.

Challenging Day

2008-06-09T22:40:00.001-07:00

This day isn't one of the best days. Things have gone wrong one after the other. In spite of the day's many challenges, I really really am tested to keep a positive outlook, if only to keep my sanity.

So far though, things have calmed down and I am so ever grateful. Finally some peace and quiet.

Things are returning back to normal and progressing as they should.

Things should get better throughout the day. I am specially looking forward to a nice evening with my husband.

Life is Good

2008-06-05T16:52:00.000-07:00

I've been dreaming about getting a condo near our place of work. Looks like it may come true sooner than we anticipated. I just got an offer from somebody willing to help us with the deposits :-)

My husband woke me up with a kiss.

No traffic today. I got to work in just 30 minutes.

Happiness in my own words

2008-06-04T01:33:00.000-07:00

Happiness is an ever evolving definition. It could be a thing, a place or a person. It greatly varies from one person to the next. What is it, really? I like to simplify it in tiny little events that make my day bearable.

Amidst life's many trials, it is often a challenge to look at all things bright and beautiful but we must be vigilant in looking at the positive side of things no matter how impossible the situation may be or no matter how negatively people perceive us. After all, our most loyal companion throughout our lifetime is only ourselves. Friends and family come and go and lead their own busy lives and may not always have the time for us, but we always have ourselves to rely on. We are our own best friend.

Many many things make me happy. People who love me make me the happiest. But the people that make us the happiest may also be the cause of our greatest sorrow and disappointment. It takes a herculean effort to look beyond their imperfections and shortcomings during trying times but we must, in order to stay sane. I've been through a lot of disappointments in my life, almost all reduced me to tears, praying and begging on my knees for the pain to cease. Hardening my heart at closing my mind only turned me into a bitter and miserable person.

I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to be happy.

I want to lead a happy, blessed and abundant life.

The power of positive thinking

2008-06-03T23:52:00.000-07:00

Here's my dream :-)

1. Win big in a LOTTO draw!

2. Be rich and retired by 40.

3. Own five condominiums in the Greenbelt area.

4. Travel the world with my husband.

5. Live in a 3-bedroom condo in the Greenbelt area.

6. My husband would also like a red Jeep Commander.

7. To give birth to intelligent, healthy, cute, normal twin boys.

8. Own a commercial building along Aguirre Avenue in BF Homes.

9. Meet Daniel Radcliffe in person. I'm a fan :-)

10. Me and my husband to be healthy and happily married to each each other until we're 80.

If I dream it, it will come. (please please please)

Turn lemons into lemonades...drink up!

2008-06-02T03:16:00.000-07:00

Our bathroom sink fell from its bracket. We replaced that cruddy old sink with a new one, Yey!

My one and only black heeled shoes have faded, husband's buying me a new one, Yey again!

Can't wait to shop.

I wore this black dress that I love but got some bad news one time wearing it. But I decided not to tie bad news with a particular dress. Life's too short to hold grudges. Anyway, it's not the dress' fault that I was wearing it when I got the news. After all, I always get nice compliments when I'm wearing it :-)

Lunch bliss

2008-06-01T22:46:00.000-07:00

What a satisfying lunch. I've been craving for a mocha birthday cake for two days and what do you know? We have some at the office, what great luck!

I took a walk and it was sunny, I was able to wear my funky red shades. I felt like a movie star :-)

My boss went out for lunch, ahhh stress-free for a few hours.

I saw my favorite cousin yesterday.

A new day!

2008-06-01T20:35:00.000-07:00

I feel pretty today.

I'm in a good mood. My boss is in a good mood and hasn't snapped at me yet :-)

A co-worker said I looked better without glasses.

Got to work on time, despite the horrendous traffic.

This is my first post

2008-05-29T21:05:00.000-07:00

Despite the many challenges in my life, I've had many many blessings. They come in different forms, big and small. Each one cherished and appreciated. This blog is a journal of all things wonderful in my life.

Here goes:

I woke up revived and energetic with my husband warmly curled beside me. I felt sexy when I woke up

A co-worker curled my hair and I felt pretty.

My husband is taking me out to dinner later and I am so excited.

I decided not to be bothered by my boss' foul mood.

I finally started this blog!